2004
December
I feel like I'm a robot. Not in the trendy way, either.Routine. Zeep. Z…
I feel like I'm a robot. Not in the trendy way, either.Routine. Zeep. Zip. Beep. Boink.And coaxing myself and others into thinking that I'm strong isn't going to hold up much longer, I feel. The ruse is going to break.…
The last few days its been inhumanely cold. 0 degrees, 3 degrees, -4 de…
The last few days its been inhumanely cold. 0 degrees, 3 degrees, -4 degree windchill, etc. today when i walked out the front door i bundled, but no gust blew me over. It feels like it's thirty degrees and it almost fee…
November
I've moved so much, and moving around is degenerative to my goal. But t…
I've moved so much, and moving around is degenerative to my goal. But the idea of a Hindi sannyasi has really been intriguing me lately. I know I don't have the balls to just up and leave right now, but maybe if I was f…
August
"I have an existential map. It has 'you are here' written all over it."…
"I have an existential map. It has 'you are here' written all over it." -Stephen Wright I used to have a friend that would tell me 'ignorance is bliss'. He would then go on to describe his ideal circumstance in being bl…
had a pretty damn good weekend at the new place. can't wait to move dow…
had a pretty damn good weekend at the new place. can't wait to move down for sure. started painting my room, with two colors…one green, the other….is getting painted over. paint is expensive and i can't afford follies l…
today i went to ABC warehouse and asked them how much it would be to in…
today i went to ABC warehouse and asked them how much it would be to install a car stereo. they said 40 bucks, plus 30 bucks for parts, plus tax, etc. 80 dollars? bullshit. these guys are scam artists. instead, i bought…
habit m akes us happy h.abit makes us ///// sad it's so simple to sa…
habit m akes us happy h.abit makes us ///// sad it's so simple to say so <hard to remember to stay aw ake on the drive h .ome¹ or to our graves it feels the .same faith f ul evenings tunnel vision routine conque.rs d…
July
has anyone really mastered the art of being alive? with this i mean, to…
has anyone really mastered the art of being alive? with this i mean, to live entirely unscathed by the world around them no matter how grim it may look. i figure there are two ways in which people may do this. theres th…
the von bondies, lack of communication has been on repeat. i ccan feel…
the von bondies, lack of communication has been on repeat. i ccan feel my life slowing down like a top that's lost all its momentum. for the first time since i can remember, i think i'm okay with that. ties are cut, bri…
I canceled my Sprint account. Time to start saving an extra sixty-two d…
I canceled my Sprint account. Time to start saving an extra sixty-two dollars a month. At the end of this month you will only be able to reach me at my home or by e-mail. I figured it was about time to start saving some…
so·ci·o·path n. One who is affected with a personality disorder marked by antisocial behavior
The Tower Position: Self Main (positional) Meaning: Significant change…
The Tower Position: Self Main (positional) Meaning: Significant change is brought about rapidly and unexpectedly. The card in the Self position reveals aspects of how you perceive yourself right now. The Tower represent…
June
my car died yesterday. it was sad to see leon the neon on the side of t…
my car died yesterday. it was sad to see leon the neon on the side of the road, smoking out of the hood. but i just sat on the trunk and looked at the open fields and the clouds and waited for the wrecker. it's events l…
today was the day i swallowed the lump in my throat, walked in and gave her my number. oh, julay.
I'm sorry that you are feeling so depressed and I'm sorry if I contribu…
I'm sorry that you are feeling so depressed and I'm sorry if I contribute to that. My life has more or less been spent raising you guys. Quite a bit of that time by myself, which didn't leave a whole lot of time for hob…
good goddamn. i love it how when the pistons beat the pacers, everyone…
good goddamn. i love it how when the pistons beat the pacers, everyone was like "now you get to see the pistons get murdered by the lakers" and what did we do? we won game one @ LA We came "this close" to winning game t…
our 'success' is founded on a base of our species' compilation of knowl…
our 'success' is founded on a base of our species' compilation of knowledge from a time since passed. without surplus, there can be no inequality. when you eliminate 'self', there are no boundaries. our adaptability as…
With so much drama in the Mount of P, it's kinda hard bein' Bryan R-O Double-B.
life slides by. today, today. before today i'd never been in a funeral…
life slides by. today, today. before today i'd never been in a funeral procession. are you supposed to laugh? because we did. we joked about life. we made cracks at the people watching us from their porches. we laughed…
May
April
whoa, i'm just totally worn out. i've decided to not go to class today…
whoa, i'm just totally worn out. i've decided to not go to class today and just stick around here. i've caught up on some lost sleep and maybe now i can actually get some things done that probably should have been long…
I can't believe it's almost been a year since I moved home from Florida…
I can't believe it's almost been a year since I moved home from Florida. I haven't been single for this long since I started dating. of course I've had pseudo relationships/encounters; nothing serious, and it's really s…
for so long i've wanted to be somewhere else. to be something else. to…
for so long i've wanted to be somewhere else. to be something else. to be understood. to be loved like nothing else mattered in the world. i wish they sold new lives at garage sales. i saw three garage sales today while…
i should seriously ask my anthropolgy teacher out on a date or somethin…
i should seriously ask my anthropolgy teacher out on a date or somethin' i can't walk into the room without hearing hot for teacher by van halen. and my soc teacher is so goofy but i like the guy a lot. he can't be much…
off to the truck stop to get coffee with trevor. you know, for such a f…
off to the truck stop to get coffee with trevor. you know, for such a freaky little place, they make a damn good cup of coffee. somehow we need to figure a new plan for coachella. renting a van is absolutely out of the…
listening to the cure in the morning just makes me feel good.
March
Here's a game. It's stolen from someone else…to whom i don't know how t…
Here's a game. It's stolen from someone else…to whom i don't know how to link to. Type your first name into google followed by the word "is". Ex. "piedmont is" Share your results! Bryan is here, too. Bryan is a West Tex…
perhaps it's time for a real update. i've actually been a real busy-bod…
perhaps it's time for a real update. i've actually been a real busy-body for the first time in ages. i mean, holy shit, i was up at 5:30 today…without an alarm clock—-[need someone say–'who the fuck are you and what hav…
this has been the wierdest couple of weeks. ultra highs and mega lows. gotta love it.
February
1:Steal this from someone's journal 2: Open your MP3 player 3: Put it o…
1:Steal this from someone's journal 2: Open your MP3 player 3: Put it on random 4: List the first twenty songs it plays, no matter how embarassing The New Pornographers - July Jones The Sea and Cake - Two Dolphins Les S…
i've been touched by their despair. signatures in thought, words, brush…
i've been touched by their despair. signatures in thought, words, brushstrokes on canvas, or melodies on eardrums. sometimes rejoicing to, other times empathizing with. wrapping my mind around to grasp, sink in or float…
on sale now. i know you know what i'm talking about. go get em. go. now.
so here's the full line-up for coachella: Radiohead The Pixies Kraftwer…
so here's the full line-up for coachella: Radiohead The Pixies Kraftwerk Wilco The International Noise Conspiracy The Rapture Desert Sessions Sparta Hieroglyphics Kinky Deathcab for Cutie Peretz …And You Will Know Us By…
oh damn. thom just killed himself over jenn. i swear, what is this world coming to.
haha. one of the best profile's i've read in a long time : Here are som…
haha. one of the best profile's i've read in a long time : Here are some updated pointers for a better life: Tight pants and white belts don't make you smart. Sick tat, bro. There is a fair chance that Ulysses (dog on l…
chearbayb: you there? spirainfinitas: yeah chearbayb: wanna hear a funn…
chearbayb: you there? spirainfinitas: yeah chearbayb: wanna hear a funny story? spirainfinitas: yes chearbayb: Ok so, today Emily opened up a bag of fruit snacks chearbayb: and she's like "Gross, Jenny do these have mol…
So I guess I better do an update on this past weekend because it was tr…
So I guess I better do an update on this past weekend because it was truly stupendous. Trev and I started off by heading down to grand rapids friday night. We met up with elizabeth at her place [cool loft, can't believe…
January
if you live near one of these areas [or even if you don't] give one of…
if you live near one of these areas [or even if you don't] give one of these numbers a call. it's fucking funny shit. Boston: 617-861-3962 ** New York: 212-660-2245 New Hampshire: 603-413-2340 Rhode Island: 401-648-6543…
spirainfinitas: what's up this weekend? chearbayb: ummm, nothing that i…
spirainfinitas: what's up this weekend? chearbayb: ummm, nothing that i know of. My brother might come up to get a tattoo, i'd like to do something (drinking or snowboarding specifically) but who knows chearbayb: nothin…
i got my guitar out today. dusted it off. i think that's part of what's…
i got my guitar out today. dusted it off. i think that's part of what's missing. trevor is going to move his old kit into my basement and we're going to play. if i get this job i've applied for…i'll have money finally.…
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what happened? i'm really confused about today. and i have an accent? hahahaha.
Though I've always enjoyed the style of Whitman and Ginsberg, I've neve…
Though I've always enjoyed the style of Whitman and Ginsberg, I've never really toyed with it on my own until last night. May-be crap, but it is still my own: You for who I have searched and gone to such lengths to make…
stole this from thisdamngirl bold the places you've visited: Alabama, 2…
stole this from thisdamngirl bold the places you've visited: Alabama, 2) Alaska , 3) Arizona, 4) Arkansas, 5) California, 6) Colorado, 7) Connecticut, 8) Delaware, 9) Florida, 10) Georgia, 11) Hawaii, 12) Idaho, 13) Ill…
so i had an interesting week/weekend. the week started out kind of weir…
so i had an interesting week/weekend. the week started out kind of weird with maria and i hanging out a couple of days. very sweet girl and cute as hell but i'm not so sure she's the opposing puzzle piece. but i guess w…
this has been the laziest weekend of my life. i've basically just sat a…
this has been the laziest weekend of my life. i've basically just sat around rolling cigarettes, drinking wine and having conversation with my mother. my brother eric just got his first tattoos yesterday and though they…