I've moved so much, and moving around is degenerative to my goal. But the idea of a Hindi sannyasi has really been intriguing me lately. I know I don't have the balls to just up and leave right now, but maybe if I was forced into a position where I had little to no material possessions, then I'd really have no choice. I want to be more self-explorative. Being soft with all of its distractions (e.g having a car, house, music, job, school) has a way of making you forgot about what it really means to be alive. I always think about that one greasy spoon scene in Pulp Fiction when John …

i wanna jump, jump, jump! back like stargazing a rhythmic thump. thump. with a plastic-soled shoe you're plastic-souled, too. shush the books you read go on pontificating, dude

OKAY. HI.

Can anyone empathize with this: when things are going really well you just feel like fucking everything up on purpose so it won't be so goddamned ordinary anymore? That's how I feel.

goodnight.

people, please answer:

1. who is your cell phone provider?

2. are you satisfied with your service? pros/cons?

i was recently with sprint for about a year and a half and for the most part i was satisfied. hardly ever was i left without digital service, even during my drive from michigan to california. i may be needing a phone again soon so i'm checking into my options.

"I have an existential map.  It has 'you are here' written all over it."

-Stephen Wright

I used to have a friend that would tell me 'ignorance is bliss'.  He would then go on to describe his ideal circumstance in being blissfully ignorant, painting a picture of himself nearly comatose in a wheelchair on the front lawn of his home, watching the sprinkler go back and forth with unending interest as he lay drooling on himself.  At the time  we both thought that we were pretty smart people.  Quoting books and reciting dry …

"He found that he was often angry…that they were satisfied with their lives which had none of the vibrance his own was taking on. And he was angry at himself, that he could not change that for them."
- Lois Lowry's The Giver

had a pretty damn good weekend at the new place. can't wait to move down for sure. started painting my room, with two colors…one green, the other….is getting painted over. paint is expensive and i can't afford follies like this.

my roomates are awesome, so far. i think it will work out just fine but i guess i'll see how things go in the long run. met two new people, one beautiful, and the other has real personality. too bad that machine from the movie The Fly isn't around…they could jump in together and come out as one…

bad news though: i live pretty much …

today i went to ABC warehouse and asked them how much it would be to install a car stereo. they said 40 bucks, plus 30 bucks for parts, plus tax, etc. 80 dollars? bullshit. these guys are scam artists.

instead, i bought a cd player wiring harness for ten bucks, did some fiddlin' and viola! 20 minutes later i have my cd player in my protege, which i've been driving for almost a month now with only NPR [and on good nights, MSU college radio]. i drove around for two hours just listening to some of the cd's i've aquired in the last three weeks. man it feels good. should have seen the moon …

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So, I'm applying for a student loan through my credit union.  It's for a car, but shhh, they don't need to know that.  Full coverage insurance is blow-me-away expensive.  Well, as it turns out you need to list assests.  As of current, my assests are as follows:

• Paul Reed Smith CE 22 Maple Top, appraised @ $1200
• 300 albums @ resale average $3 = $900
• 2 Hermann Miller shell chairs @ $100 each = $200

Dude, I don't think they'll let me have a loan.